Next Steps

 I signed myself up for a introductory webinar on how to become a professional KonMari consultant.  Basically, I'm exploring whether I want to become a professional home organizer.  The Zoom webinar was an hour long but I left 30 minutes into presentation.  It's not that I don't respect professional organizers.  I mean, hello, I am obsessed with all the blogs and books from The Home Edit to Swedish Death Cleaning!  The host asked all of the attendees to type our current occupation in the chat.  I typed nothing.  A woman in the chat (isn't it always a woman on these types of things?!) chatted that she was a former federal employee and now...not.  I read that and was distracted thinking about her the whole time.  

"Can I private message her a note of solidarity?  No, I cannot because that is weird and she doesn't know me.  Shoot, I don't even know her!  Yet, we are in the same place.  Our life's mission denied so unceremoniously and so abruptly.  We are here together on this webinar on how to spark joy and rid ourselves of the things that do not make us happy.  How I wish I could discard the Administration right now."  

I think you can see how it spiraled from there.  Before I knew it, it was 30 minutes in and I had heard nothing.  I was sad and back in that place of what the hell is happening and why this happen to me and how could this have happened.  Contemplating my next career is not what I want to be doing mid-morning on Wednesday, May 14, 2025.  Hail Mary's on LinkedIn, Indeed, Idealist, and even Craigslist.  Cold calls and emails.  Do you remember me?  I swear I am not a loser.  I just had this terrible, unfortunate, life-altering thing happen to me along with like 19,999 others in my Department alone, nevermind the other Departments.  

I clicked the red "leave" button and walked away from my computer.  This was probably the best decision of the day.  I drank more coffee, washed some dishes, folded laundry, and started to think about lunch for the kids when they returned home from school on this minimum day.  

I guess I still can't be sure when the feels will hit me.  Apparently today it was on a How to Be a Professional Certified KonMari Home Organizer webinar.  But the important thing is that I tried and now I know.  Being a professional home organizer will stay in my dreams and I will keep marching forward searching for my next role.